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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 24.06.2025 03:59

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I never cut or harmed myself..

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

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She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

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Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

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When she asked me how she looked .

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

But it wasn’t much.

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He was dying to do it , i knew.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Im still living with it.

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Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I think the readers, may guess!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

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I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

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Comes on , in middle age.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

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My mum and dad in the seventies!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

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Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

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And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

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I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

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They are buried together, in the same grave..

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

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Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I couldn’t, believe it.

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But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

One cannot live in the past .

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

She wouldn,t have been !

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

And i lived it daily.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Who then, do I blame.?

Was to survive, this bastard.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

She married twice! .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I said to her

My life is so biszare .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I was very sick at this time too.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

She was in good health!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I was scared of men, in general

So, i spoilt her more .

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I was seconnd youngest,

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I write beautiful poetry .

Put me off passion for life!!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I will be 64.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I was 9 years of age.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

As i do to all so called friends.?

We all went to grammer schools

All the time i was locked up.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

But ive been too sick for many years..

I waited trembling.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

What did i know ?

Ive learnt so much.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I don,t even have a pension.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

So whats the point in blame.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Especially a lifetime of it.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

He knew the spot.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

She loved him until the end.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

She found it foreign!.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

It was going to be , some day.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

My family never makes their pension either.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

We were not on the streets..

I have no regrets .

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

But, we were locked up after school.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Would this be the day?

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Why did i forgive my father ?

This is soul school!.